A.C.L.K

People come into and out of our lives all the time. They do this so often and at such different times it's odd to me. This last weekend was a goodbye weekend for my roommate of three years Adam. He is moving back to England which is where he was born and raised for a good part of his younger life. Now he may only be moving there for a few months and then coming back. He's not sure how it's really going to play out. I'm very happy for him and proud he has made such a grown up choice. However I'm going to miss this man a ton. I have been trying to play it off like it's not really going to effect me, cause I have dealt with people leaving or I have moved away from people quite a lot in the last 10 years or so. This is true I don't let people in very well, I don't know if that's due to being in the navy and having to leave people at different times and having people come in and out of my life. That thick skin is only so thick.

Adam and I have been friends now for close to 7 years. I have not had a steady friend like that since high school which was close to 11 years ago. We did not start off a close friends to be honest I'm pretty sure I annoyed him and he was kind of rude to people he first met. After spending a few weeks hanging out with him when he moved down to Ventura from Santa Barbara because a friend of mine told me to hang out with him, and I had no one else to hang out with. I saw what I now know to be the attraction of Adam. Now I say attraction because he's the kind of guy that people in general want to be around. He makes them feel like they're cool. (maybe sometimes cooler than they really are) I also got to watch what a lot of people did not get to see, I got to watch as Adam grew from a boy that hated men and thought women were like prizes, into a man that treats everyone (even the people he can't stand) like they are a child of gods. For a long time I had to hear "why is Adam such an asshole?" to this I had to tell those people if you don't like how he treats you tell him. He had once told me if a person is not going to stand up for themselves it shows him how much they care about themselves. (I'm paraphrasing) With a person that ever body knows and lots of people want to be around and spend time with. A person like myself is sure to doubt there worth to a friend like this. I think that's what makes Adam special, that he makes you feel like the time you have shared with him is different from the time that everyone else has shared with him. In someway it feels like the relationship that I have with him is different than the relationship all his other friends have with him. That may or may not be true, but its nice to feel like your a special person to someone. I have the utmost faith that Adam will go far in this life. I hope that god sees fit to keep him in my life. I know that, that means I will have to put in the time and effort to keep this friendship strong. Which is something I feel like I have failed at in the past.

A.C.L.K, you have been an amazing friend and roommate, I will miss you while you are gone and look forward to the next time I get to see you. Take care and keep in touch.

Love Dennis

P.S. I will always raise an arm and yell out ENNNGGGGLLLAAANNNDD when I see those England freight trucks.

Funk that

So it's been 11 days since I last wrote a blog. I don't know why I could not seem to pull myself together enough to type on here. I guess I have been a little depressed lately. No one particular thing is bringing me down. It just seems like ever few months I start to get an overwhelming feeling of failure or like my life is lame, or headed no where with no one really in it. Now I know that most of that is just me feeling sorry for myself. I have never been diagnosed with depression, but I believe it runs in my family.

I'm 29 years old, I have never had a serious relationship. I don't have any kids, which is a good thing and a bad thing. I love kids and think being a father is going to be one of the most rewarding things I will do in my life. (is it weird that the whole time I'm typing this in my head the words have a British accent on them. I attribute that to Russel Brand I just watched "Arthur".) I'm in school to get my bachelors, 11 years after I graduated high school. I work at 2 different rehabs one for teens and one for adults. I like my jobs, but know they are not the career I want. I have an idea of what I want to do, work in sports marketing or that's what sounds good when I tell people what I want to do when I get my bachelors. However there is a lot of fear around it, if I'll like that type of work, if I can even get a job, if that jobs going to pay me enough.

I talk a lot about how I want to start my own business, yet I'm the kind of person that does well with lots of structure and direction. So would I ever really be able to run my own company? Who knows, I feel like I'm just throwing up all over this blog. Like I'm a 17 year old little girl writing in her diary. Oh well it does make me feel better. There is a plan, I just have to trust the plan for me is a good one. I feel like I have said this all before so, so many times.

Hmmm, I need some sleep

I just saw a sobe commercial that was advertising a staring contest with a beautiful blond named Kate Upton. Now if I have noticed anything about this blog, the first thing would be that it has no real direction. The second thing is that I sure do love to talk about women I find hot, sexy, gorgeous, smoking, fine, drop dead, tantalizing. I'm one of those guys that makes good looking women hold the stature in the world that they do. I don't mean it to objectify them, I don't do it to take away anything from them. I point out their beauty because it's all I can tell about them without knowing them. That's not to defend myself, I'm at a point in my life that I want a hot girl friend, let me rephrase that. I want a woman that in my opinion is hot, I think that's important to point out, I do believe that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Here is the beauty and I am the beholder. Enjoy

Today in History #3

This one will be like a little shoot out to my dad. Not that he reads my blog or anything it just reminded me of him. Without further ad do here is this weeks "Today in history" on a Saturday in 1951 Citation was the first race horse to ever win a million dollar race. Brought to you by -www.funfactz.com



It seems like all that good shows come out at one time on one day. Thank god I final have tivo, that seems like a funny thing for me to say. Like some old man with a white beard surrounded my beautiful half naked angles. (Yes in my heaven angles are topless or bottomless it's their choice) back to my thought, so god is watching TV and his two favorite shows are on at the same time. SHIT he screams out....so loud that Thailand suffers another tsunami. So he gives some genius the idea to record live TV and save it on a little box. Well as I said thank you god.


The quick Verizon of my overviews for last nights shows. Rescue Me: Season premier is still on my tivo and I hopefully will get to watch it today. It's the last season of a show that may have already peaked. However I love the characters and cant wait to see how is all plays out. Next show Big Brother: Something happened to Evil Dick, and he got pulled from the game. I can't tell if it's part of the expect the unexpected part of the game or if something really did happen. Think I'll have to google it and find out. Rachel and Brandon won Power of Veto which puts double blood on there hands. The guys Keith thinks he has all the new bees votes, and Porsha the thinks she is safe with the 3 veterans that get to vote. It think she is dumb and does not know how to count. And for the last show

Rivals: Kenny and Wes and a few other idiots think by getting the girls to picking CT and Adam to go first is going to give them a better chance at them winning and then Evan was going to throw the competition so he and his partner would go in and they would force CT and Adam into the Jungle. Well like Eve said it was not going to work and Wes and Kenny ended up in the Jungle however they hung on by the skin of their teeth. That another expression that is lost on me. Your teeth don't have skin so what the hell does that even mean. Well that's all for now. I have not been all that creative lately, nor have I been checking out others blogs. If you know of any fun blogs leave me the link and I'll check them out.

Took a few days off

Well I'm back and to kick it off I'm in a dirty joke telling kind of mood. This one is kind of long so you will have to go a long for the ride if you want to get the punch line. Here goes,

A teenage boy is leaving for school, when his grandpa pull him aside and hands him a duck. The grandpa says "take this duck to school with you and when you get home tell me about the day you had with your duck." The boy gets on the bus headed for school when a teenage girl asks him

"Can I have your duck?" "what's in it for me?" he replies. "I'll fuck you for him" the girl says. He thinks about it and decides it's a fair deal. Later that day on the ride home. The boy tells the girl "I need my duck back, I'll fuck you for the duck." She agrees, next as the boys is leaving to get off the bus, the duck gets slammed by the bus door and gets hurt. The bus driver feels horrible about this so he offers the kid 25 dollars. Our teenager walks in the front door and grandpa is waiting to hear all about his day with the duck. "How did your day go?" The boy thinks about it for a minute and says "I got a fuck for a duck, a duck for a fuck and twentyfive bucks for a fucked up duck." ta-da.

On to other less funny and important stuff. Like how I'm hating being single, it's not even like I have bad luck with the ladies. I have no luck with them. In the last year and a half I've had one girlfriend. Who by chance just got married. I've had two girlfriends in the last 7 years, that's not to say I have not had a chance or two. It just never seems to work out that we end up boyfriend/girlfriend. I wonder if I somehow sabotage myself without even knowing it. I'm lonely, in more than just one aspect of my life. At 29 it's really hard for me to make new friends, I don't drink so going out to the clubs with people is not a great option, not like there are good clubs in Ventura anyway. I live an hour away from anyone I work with. My best friend is my roommate and he is leaving to go back to England for at least three months and he may end of staying there for a few years. SIGH I need to turn this frown upside down, I'll do that by telling what I thought of the new movie

Horrible Bosses:

This movie was pretty damn funny, first off I like Jason Batemen a ton. He just seems like a nice guy that has a great way of delivering his lines. Jason Sudeikis is growing on me like a fungus.....Hmmm sudeikis kind of sounds like a fungus. The guy Charlie Day who plays Charlie on "It's Always Sunny" is a big hit with people. I like him but don't care much for that show. The bosses are the ones that steal the show. Kevin Spacey plays a great sociopath who cares only about himself and that his much younger wife is not sleeping around on him. Colin Farrell kills it as a messed up loaded half wit who only wants to use his dead fathers business to fiances his drug and prostitute habits. However the best horrible boss award goes to the ever so hot Jennifer Aniston (the beginning of her last name is close to anus...Jennifer Anuston, could be her porn name.) In everything I have ever seen her in, she is miss goodie two shoes, so when you hear her say something like "I'm going to have you fuck my mouth" it makes your jaw drop. All in all I think this was a movie worth seeing if you like to laugh.

Big Brother Time

I LOVE BIG BROTHER, It's been another year. I once auditioned to be on the last season I did not get on it. This show takes random people and puts them together and makes them compete in all sorts of weird things for food, money and power. The BB theme is expect the unexpected. Which always mean some crazy stuff will go down. This year right off the bat the 8 new house guests have to team up. The next twist is three power couples come back into the house. My favorite part about this is that my girl Jordan the cutest little southern bell ever is back. While she has a good looking, nice guys, (rats) I can still dream. This year I have showtime so I can watch the after dark hour or two. Which means maybe I'll see a fully or two. For the next two month or so I'll be regularly updating what has happened, what I liked and disliked. So if your a fan follow me and let me know what your thinking and I'll follow your BB updates too. Right now I gotta go and watch. I LOVE THIS SHOW!!!!!

On this day #2

So I think I'm going to do a weekly this day in history bolg, but It's going to be odd things or it might even be tied into current affairs. Kind of like this one, Casey Anthony possible got away with murder this week. On this day in 1865 Mary Surratt was the first woman executed by the U.S federal government. She was executed for her role as a conspirator in the assignation of president Abraham Lincoln.

This could be you miss Anthony, You may or may not have killed your daughter. You are getting a second chance at life. I really hope you lead a better life than O.J did. Or it will be your name on the headstone.

Wow, I'm creative sometimes. Ha! Now to the brain numbing review of last nights Rivals episode. Let me just tell you I have hated CT on every real world challenge I have watched except this one. He is a game changer for the hater Wes, the loud mouth Kenny and the know it all Evan. Don't get me wrong CT is still a dick and a bully but he adds a new element to the game. The girls that went in to the "jungle" were stupid. They tried to BS that they were going to throw the competition. This would have been a good strategy had the game in the jungle been a physical one. However it was a game of chance. Which set those two dummies home.